yesterday,received a shock and surprise news.we have just lost one of our PE teacher because of a heart attack.
Al Fatihah untuk Allahyarham Rahimi Shahar Mohd Radzi...semoga rohnya ditempatkan di kalangan org2 mukmin dan dicucuri rahmat...Amin...
2008-08-27
i never thot that what last sunday(of me getting 'scary')left some effects on some students. some students from different class told me that their friends from this class actually cried and feeling really bad...seriously x sangka..ingtkan dieorg still lg x phm the msg that i've been trying to deliver for the whole semester.
in a way, i do feel bad as well..tp mase tu dh x leh control kan,because i have such a high expectation on them..lagipun,i am the class teacher,so i do feel connected with the class members.i love them,but their attitude is the only problem here..
almost half of the class came and ask for an apology already..i dont mind if they didnt even come and see me.i really dont and seriously i mean it,coz i'll still forgive them.
cant wait to see fahmy..this week has been a burden to me...
rindu abg....
in a way, i do feel bad as well..tp mase tu dh x leh control kan,because i have such a high expectation on them..lagipun,i am the class teacher,so i do feel connected with the class members.i love them,but their attitude is the only problem here..
almost half of the class came and ask for an apology already..i dont mind if they didnt even come and see me.i really dont and seriously i mean it,coz i'll still forgive them.
cant wait to see fahmy..this week has been a burden to me...
rindu abg....
2008-08-25
yesterday,some of the students from that form 5 class gave me these chocolates and asking for an apology... so now,i have 5 bars of chocolates to be finished before they 're actually expired.i have to admit that,in some ways,it kinda soothes me.but, to tell you the truth, i cannot be mad at them for a long time. they r still my students.even if they didnt come and apologize, i will still pray for their success,regardless what they did...
2008-08-24
today's not a good day for me.certainly not a good way to start this new week..no,i dont have any problem with my colleagues, its just the thing that i have to deal with the students.
very frustrated,sad,disappointed...i think frustrated is more suitable.i cannot say that they have let me down..i dont have any right to say that.frustrated,yes..thats more like it.what happened this morning really taught me a lesson.i was so excited to enter a form 5 class this morning.i have lotsa things to tell them and discuss with them,i have planned what should i be doing in class,thinking that they have finished all the homeworks that i gave them(i was not around for almost 2 weeks).the first thing that i need to discuss with them is regarding an essay and 2 summaries.so,i walked into the class,after the greeting and all,i excitedly asked them'have you finished spm 04 & 05'.Confidently, they answered,'NOOOO!' u tell me,how should i feel at that moment?and they dont even have that guilty faces on their faces(some of them).even the kindest student in class did not finish the work..i was actually keeping my anger since last friday,as i was very disappointed with the guys when they were not being attentive when we had that Guru Cemerlang,giving workshop to them.i decided that those feelings stayed there,and i dont even want to bring up the matter anymore.but today,when they answered that,i became so mad and suddenly i felt really restless.i dont have the strength to stand anymore,my hands were shaky,i took a deep breath a few times,i felt like bursting my tears..i almost screamed in class..i rarely give them any homeworks,and that was not even a homework,they should finish it during English period,when I was not around.What did they do at that time???And their trial exam, is just next week!!!!i walked out from the class,for a few minutes..i've tried hard to do things that they asked me to,i really did..but i guess,it wasnt enough...and none of them came to me and asking for an apology until this eve,where 2 girls asked for an apology.the rest?i guess they just wait up for Majlis Mohon Restu....
and tonight, i was supposed to meet up with these 4 students,to check their essays and summaries.they havent turn up yet..its okay,i'll wait for as long as i can stand..
i almost give up..seriously..i was very close of giving up.why?because of this..i rather teach students who live in rural area,because they know how to respect their teachers.if i give up,i'll lose my interest...
very frustrated,sad,disappointed...i think frustrated is more suitable.i cannot say that they have let me down..i dont have any right to say that.frustrated,yes..thats more like it.what happened this morning really taught me a lesson.i was so excited to enter a form 5 class this morning.i have lotsa things to tell them and discuss with them,i have planned what should i be doing in class,thinking that they have finished all the homeworks that i gave them(i was not around for almost 2 weeks).the first thing that i need to discuss with them is regarding an essay and 2 summaries.so,i walked into the class,after the greeting and all,i excitedly asked them'have you finished spm 04 & 05'.Confidently, they answered,'NOOOO!' u tell me,how should i feel at that moment?and they dont even have that guilty faces on their faces(some of them).even the kindest student in class did not finish the work..i was actually keeping my anger since last friday,as i was very disappointed with the guys when they were not being attentive when we had that Guru Cemerlang,giving workshop to them.i decided that those feelings stayed there,and i dont even want to bring up the matter anymore.but today,when they answered that,i became so mad and suddenly i felt really restless.i dont have the strength to stand anymore,my hands were shaky,i took a deep breath a few times,i felt like bursting my tears..i almost screamed in class..i rarely give them any homeworks,and that was not even a homework,they should finish it during English period,when I was not around.What did they do at that time???And their trial exam, is just next week!!!!i walked out from the class,for a few minutes..i've tried hard to do things that they asked me to,i really did..but i guess,it wasnt enough...and none of them came to me and asking for an apology until this eve,where 2 girls asked for an apology.the rest?i guess they just wait up for Majlis Mohon Restu....
and tonight, i was supposed to meet up with these 4 students,to check their essays and summaries.they havent turn up yet..its okay,i'll wait for as long as i can stand..
i almost give up..seriously..i was very close of giving up.why?because of this..i rather teach students who live in rural area,because they know how to respect their teachers.if i give up,i'll lose my interest...
2008-08-20
2008-08-15
its the school hols!!i finally can breathe!(not that i dont breathe before,dont take it literally ar).drove for 4 hours yesterday,from besut to kuantan.smpai umah,nk jalan pun x larat..but it was a relieved actually,finally got to see a different view from besut..
got some marking to be done this week,but its ok.as long as i'm in kuantan while marking the paper,i dont mind..:)
got some marking to be done this week,but its ok.as long as i'm in kuantan while marking the paper,i dont mind..:)
2008-08-08
THE WEEKEND
its the weekend!but going to be a dull one! :( will be stuck in school handling all the last minute stuff that need to be done before sunday.its the camping stuff.seriously,i never see myself will be involved in such a thing;camping,sport & any other outdoor activities.but now,here i am,commiting myself to camping!!such a nice twist..but,to my surprise,i begin to like and enjoy it...huhuhu...presenting the new SALWA..
THE HEADACHE
not literally..its been two days now,the elctricity was no stable..ade plak bley black out.x semena2,hujan x,ribut x..tetibe je black out.*sigh*sabor je ler...
THE GLOOMY
fahmy is busy this week.if not,he'll definetely be here.i just miss him so much.i've been in a relationship before.for three years.it didnt work out..i thot i'll be single for quite sometimes.but,i just cant resist this man whom i love mostly and dearly now.i know he loves me,and i definetely love him.i do hope that this relationship will be the one,as what i've always pray for..
i love u abg..i just love u so much..thanks for all the wonderful times.spending the time with u,is the time that I highly anticipate and treasure.thanks for always being here and there for me.thanks for being my shoulder to cry on.thanks for believing in me,thanks for having faith in me,that u r willing to put ur future with me..thank u for everything...
once again,
I LOVE U
its the weekend!but going to be a dull one! :( will be stuck in school handling all the last minute stuff that need to be done before sunday.its the camping stuff.seriously,i never see myself will be involved in such a thing;camping,sport & any other outdoor activities.but now,here i am,commiting myself to camping!!such a nice twist..but,to my surprise,i begin to like and enjoy it...huhuhu...presenting the new SALWA..
THE HEADACHE
not literally..its been two days now,the elctricity was no stable..ade plak bley black out.x semena2,hujan x,ribut x..tetibe je black out.*sigh*sabor je ler...
THE GLOOMY
fahmy is busy this week.if not,he'll definetely be here.i just miss him so much.i've been in a relationship before.for three years.it didnt work out..i thot i'll be single for quite sometimes.but,i just cant resist this man whom i love mostly and dearly now.i know he loves me,and i definetely love him.i do hope that this relationship will be the one,as what i've always pray for..
i love u abg..i just love u so much..thanks for all the wonderful times.spending the time with u,is the time that I highly anticipate and treasure.thanks for always being here and there for me.thanks for being my shoulder to cry on.thanks for believing in me,thanks for having faith in me,that u r willing to put ur future with me..thank u for everything...
once again,
I LOVE U
2008-08-04
fresh start
finally!
after 3 weeks, i've finally created a new blog..away from my students' reach...x de privacy langsung..maybe it's the address, i think..senang sgt kot.anyway,an update of what happened for the last three weeks.
1. exam week.
it's pre trial exam for the form 5 students,that means marking papers time for me.i took basically about 3 weeks to finish up all the papers.performance wise, it was a not so nice result la..dont know what happened to these students.even a top scorer cant even score.this,started to freak me out.trial exam is a month from now.if their result would be something like the pre trial exam, i'll be dead meat.
2.activity week
form 5 students involved with Kem Kecemerlangan SPM. i was in charged of souvenirs and financial matters a.k.a the treasurer la kan.argh!!pening ngan duit nih..lame2 pegang duit org,tensen jadinye..travelling back and forth jugak la..mane nk settle the paper lagi,nk bagi elaun speaker lagi..dhla x leh claim duit petrol..TENSEN!!!
3.SUMUR 2008
surprise surprise!!i play netball!!my sister was sarcastically being supportive,"kak wa,awak main netball??"konon2 innocent la tuh..oh ya,SUMUR is Sukan Muhibbah Mara.this year,it was held in MRSM Pengkalan Chepa.ehem,most important thing was,fahmy was there as well.. :) i had fun,my friends had fun as well..
will be meeting fahmy today... :) suke........
after 3 weeks, i've finally created a new blog..away from my students' reach...x de privacy langsung..maybe it's the address, i think..senang sgt kot.anyway,an update of what happened for the last three weeks.
1. exam week.
it's pre trial exam for the form 5 students,that means marking papers time for me.i took basically about 3 weeks to finish up all the papers.performance wise, it was a not so nice result la..dont know what happened to these students.even a top scorer cant even score.this,started to freak me out.trial exam is a month from now.if their result would be something like the pre trial exam, i'll be dead meat.
2.activity week
form 5 students involved with Kem Kecemerlangan SPM. i was in charged of souvenirs and financial matters a.k.a the treasurer la kan.argh!!pening ngan duit nih..lame2 pegang duit org,tensen jadinye..travelling back and forth jugak la..mane nk settle the paper lagi,nk bagi elaun speaker lagi..dhla x leh claim duit petrol..TENSEN!!!
3.SUMUR 2008
surprise surprise!!i play netball!!my sister was sarcastically being supportive,"kak wa,awak main netball??"konon2 innocent la tuh..oh ya,SUMUR is Sukan Muhibbah Mara.this year,it was held in MRSM Pengkalan Chepa.ehem,most important thing was,fahmy was there as well.. :) i had fun,my friends had fun as well..
will be meeting fahmy today... :) suke........
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